struggles

Lord,
Please challenge me and discipline and train me in such a way that I will steadfastly run after you always. Please break me and reveal my sin to me. I want to depend only on you! Regardless of my struggles or lack of boldness please teach me complete reliance on you!


If you have raced with runners and they have worn you our, how can you compete with horses? If you stumble in a peaceful land, what will you do in the thickets of the Jordan? Even your brothers- your own father's household- even they were treacherous to you; even they have cried out loudly after you. Do not have confidence in them, though they speak well of you. Jeremiah 12:5-6

If we are struggling in the homeland and where it is "easy" to be a Christian and no physical persecution, how can we even think we will be able to make it in the "real" world, outside of this place where people are sent to kill Christians and persecute them? I struggle every single day. I'm not ready for the front battlelines yet, even though I can see that is where I have been called. You've called me to something more. You've called me to rise up. You've called this dead body to life and to live in harmony to you. Dancing to the glorious rhythym of your own heart. Please captivate me once again and let me come to a place where I may dwell in your presence, only to be overcome with great passion and desire for you. You satisfy my soul and fulfill my every need. You sustain me and provide everything. You saved me for your name's sake. That the world would see your goodness and that you can change hearts and restore people to what they were created for. Your goodness is my delight.

There is certainly no righteous man on earth who does good and never sins. Ecclesiastes 7:20